Wednesday, 12 November 2014

When I grow up...

I used to dream about the day I could wear high heels without feeling silly, wearing lipstick without looking like a clown and most importantly being able to stroll up to Tesco's checkouts with a bottle of Rum and Vodka and handing over my ID. Now that I'm 18 and all these things and opportunities are accessible to me I want nothing more than to cuddle a TY beanie bear, while watching Looney Tunes.

This evening I am feeling particularly down about my age, but more specifically growing up. Things are dawning on me that never have before and the first one being, the dreaded money problems.

All my friends have learnt or are learning to drive. Something I desire to do but I simply can't afford it. Lessons, a provisional, a car and ugh, insurance... I can't help looking at a car and wanting to throw a rock at it out of jealousy. 

Not only money, the world and my world doesn't evolve around it and I won't let it but sometimes we have to face reality that money is and is always going to be a major part of our lives. Careers are now dawning on me, the pressure of going to university, getting amazing grades, becoming prime minister, literally the pressures are making me feel like I'm applying for prime minister.

I'm now left thinking a quote I have heard so many people speak before, 'Why did I wish my life away?'. Am I the only one who feels as if my childhood was snatched from me? Why oh why did I day dream away from Spongebob wishing I could grow up. If I could go back now I would tell my younger self to not day dream while watching Spongebob and to soak up all its weird yet wonderful moments.

I know a lot of bloggers are around my age (18) or in their 20's, did you feel like this? Whats your advice if so, I just can't seem to get my mind out of this funk. 

As writing is such a huge passion of mine Wednesday posts are now for that purpose, of writing about whatever the heck I want. In a kind of magazine, article style. Do you have any ideas of what exactly I could now title Wednesday posts? I'd love to know!


  1. Call it life! You'll appreciate having something to look back on and read back over! Write down all your dreams and inspirations and do a bucklet list! I want to do one for myself too! You're right though we all wish it away too quick and I waatch my daughter grow and watch her own childhood slipping away far to quickly too! We are all so eager to grow up but when we get there we wish we hadn't! Enjoy 18 for what it is! Embrace those things you waited for and enjoy them! They'll be quickly gone!

    1. Thank you Lindsay! I suppose I will be writing another post like this in 10 years time ahah xx

  2. Im 21 and I feel exactly the same. I just want to be a child curled up with my teddy watching disney films while my mum looks after me, although this still kinda happens. Im not enjoying the stress of uni, finding a job and life being so expensive. On the plus side I have good friends & family and I can kick back with a vodka and cherryade like the adult I am :)
    Beth x
    Mermaid in Disguise


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